May be buying a new (used) car soon...

Nothing special, just something reliable for point A to B stuff.

Thing is, my current car has issues that make it worthless as a trade in (tho it still does the A to B stuff), so I may make it a little project to fix the minor stuff (read: radiator leak) and then take it to a shop to see if there's anything major, then give it away or something. Of course, I may just sell it as a project car. Who knows.

Living contradiction

So apparently my therapist finds it humorous that I have strong issues with self esteem, yet am horribly arrogant. Disregarding that the confidence only applies to some things, and the self esteem issues to others.

I've been listening to alot of random music lately, the joys of putting iTunes on shuffle. A bit of Queen, Eve 6, Breaking Benjamin... Not to mention the Depeche Mode and Duran Duran. But then I remembered there was a new single out from BB, and it just dropped two days ago, so I gave it a listen. Or a watch, rather, as the "release" was actually the music video. Really very good. The song is going to be in this new Bruce Willis flick called "Surrogates" that looks pretty interesting, and the music video is a good blend of scenes from the movie and scenes of the band. It's on their Myspace page atm, but you can probably find it on youtube (I Will Not Bow).

So right now I'm waiting for the dryer to finish so I can rotate laundry... Watching Hot Fuzz.. and writing. I've been writing alot lately. Usually I just come up with a story and then try to make images to go with it, I almost never try to tell a story with just words. Fun times tho. After I finish a chapter or so I'll put it up here or email it out

Why yes, I am that awesome.

I actually said that to someone earlier. It felt good to be arrogant again, since for the past few weeks my standard confident, self assured attitude was fading as I found myself chasing after the wrong girl, knowing full well it wouldn't happen anytime soon.

HOWEVER... Something clicked in my mind the other day. It was something to the effect of "@#$% the dumb *&$%! I'm too good to be brought down by this!" And after that I felt great. Because you know what? It's true. I am too good to be brought down by how I feel about some girl. I'm too good to be brought down by ANYTHING. I'm bulletproof. I've put myself through worse than anyone else could ever hope to, and came out on top.

In other news, I'm really liking how my schedule is done now. Apparently I missed my window to skydive this year (I was told they're booked up for the rest of the season), so I signed up for one first thing next spring. Yes, I will jump out of a plane. I will FLY.

Sean moved out this morning, so hopefully Florida works well for him. I wish him all the best.

Been listening to alot of my old CDs lately... Especially Eve 6. It's great that I can not hear anything by them for months, then pop in a CD and know every song.

It's a good day. Tomorrow will be too.

Bleh.

I need to work on having something of a regular sleep schedule. The past few nights I've been up until 5 or 6 am, going to sleep, and then waking up at noon-ish. I'm completely fine with waking up at noon (closing shifts at work this week), but I do want more than 5 or 6 hours of restful sleep. Stupid chatting.

I've had to start wearing belts, as I'm getting slimmer and its making all my pants fit kinda loose. :x

Heather sent me a song the other day, it's actually not bad. "This is me not in denial for a hot second. This song is all for you" is all she said about it, and that was after I had started listening to the song, so I didn't really notice until like 20 minutes later. "Nothing Can Change That" by The Secret Handshake.

Tomorrow? G.I. Joe and the start of my 4 day weekend. That movie is only going to be good for two things.. Snake Eyes vs. Storm Shadow, and Scarlett vs. Baroness.

I really want my other hoodie and bag to show up. >:( Apparently at some point in the future I'm also getting another box of baked goods. They were very tasty last time, so I anticipate this eagerly.

Bang.

I may be addicted to creating blogs. I have 4 at the moment... Personal, Complaining about the internet, Complaining about stupidity, and creative writing.

I actually got fully rested last night, it was amazing. Went to bed at... 4:45am? Woke up 8 hours later. Glorious. Yes, I was up late talking to a particular person, but I was also sketching for my book, listening to music, and such.

I got some of my GL merch yesterday too.. My order consisted of 3 items (BL Hoodie, RL Hoodie, and Ion T-shirt). I haven't received the RL hoodie. Tho I did buy a bag for my laptop, as well as Dragon Warrior for the NES. Great game.

So, productive discussion last night. Explained my annoyance with the fact that while I don't ever really hide any of how I feel (I can hide it well when I choose to, years of practice), I get to deal with Heather's self admitted denial of how she feels. This isn't a problem in and of itself, just that she's inconsistent with it and it slips quite often how she feels for me. Again, not intending to start anything with her, but you can see the source of annoyance, right? Being treated one way one day, and then totally different the next, and back and forth. It's not like one day she acts like she hates me or anything, just that it goes from loving me to us just being good friends.

I've started going back and finishing old games lately... I'm pretty bad about that. I'll buy a game, get 2/3 of the way through it, then get another game and never finish. Well, right now there's a lull of games I want to get, and I got tired of having things undone. So I started by finishing Fable 2 and inFamous. Next up is probably Prototype, Half Life 2, LEGO Indiana Jones, and some DS games. All while continuing with my book.

Also? Eve 6 is great music. I've had all their albums for awhile, and just listened to them again recently after my Duran Duran and Depeche Mode ran out.

You can't uninstall Evil.

I've been fleshing out dialogue and story for my book. Tis fun times, especially with the sketching. It's actually really.. Really hard for me to do. :x

See, I start every picture with a rough sketch, and then build on it. A common approach. The act of laying out a panel, though, is to do pretty much all rough sketches, and then redraw each.

I can't stop at rough sketch. I keep drawing. And then when I don't like it, I do the whole thing over, because I still don't have a rough sketch.

You know what I really miss? Phantasy Star Online. Great Dreamcast game.. I made my sister drive me to Media Play back when it came out (like, January of my junior year?)... Played that game so much. Now they have this Phantasy Star Universe crap, which is decent I suppose, but nowhere near as fun as PSO.

I'm excited for the Green Lantern movie. Ryan Reynolds is a good pick, I think, although he would be better suited to Kyle Rayner then Hal Jordan. Avatar, on the other hand, I dread. M. Night Shamamamamama is going to screw it up. Hard.

1 more hour at work. Off tomorrow, work 4 days, off 4 days. Good stuff.

I need a massage. May look into getting one Friday.