Moving right along

Switching psychiatrists! Why, you ask? Here's a small excerpt from a recent session...

P - I think we've discovered the root cause of your unhappy nature, and I gotta tell you, I don't think it's caused by depression..
J - Oh really? Is that a fact. Well then, please enlighten me.
P - It's clear that you're just displeased with life in general. You're never going to be happy until you let go of this need to have affection that you're never going to get.
J - ...Wait what? "Never" going to get? That's a terribly negative thing to tell someone.
P - I'm just saying, I'm sure that's why you're unhappy. You're not depressed, you just don't want to face facts.
J - So... Let me make sure I understand you correctly here. I DON'T have a condition which makes me have feelings of sadness, solitude, overwhelming depression, and all the other things commonly associated with clinical depression. Instead, I'm unhappy because I want to be loved, and I never will be loved. That's basically what you're saying.
P - I didn't say never.
J - Actually you did. You said I have a need to have affection that I'm never going to get. Never. Your word, not mine. I've been loved, heck, I'm loved NOW. Family, friends... You must have missed the memo, but I'm pretty much amazing.
P - I'm pretty sure I didn't say never. You know, my son uses the same misdirection when he's unhappy with reality
J - Except I'm not unhappy with reality. Right now, I'm honestly kind of annoyed that I just paid someone to help me feel better, and they said I was never going to be loved. If I wanted treatment like that, I'd just call one of my ex-girlfriends and get it for free.
P - You're just lashing out, it's ok, with a few more sessions I'm sure we can get past this
J - Yeah, listen, about that... I'm not really feeling this. Therapy, sure. Just not with you. It's not productive, and again, I'm kinda paying you for the abuse I can get for free.

Soooooo yeah. Gonna find me a new doctor that isn't a complete idiot. Also, I wasn't really a jerk to her at all until that particular appointment, because... well.. She had it coming. Wench.

Five Finger Death Punch

Had my date with Ramona yesterday, and I think it went pretty well... Dinner at Cheesecake Factory, lots of fun and talking and such, and it all seemed really not awkward for a first date. We ended up missing like 10 mins of the movie because we were still at dinner, but it's all good..

The Imaginarium of Dr Parnassus is WEIRD. It's good? But it's also very odd. And the imagination scenes are super trippy.

Then I drove her home, more good conversation, walked her to her door cuz I'm a gentleman, and went home. I think I have a second date? Just not this weekend because she has midterms next week. But I dunno. Soooo we'll see.

Josh's steps to being a good guy.

So I'm being told recently that I'd be a great boyfriend (which is evident from the fact that I'm single, mind you), and I've been figuring out what exactly it is about me that makes me oh so amazing.

1. Good boyfriends can cook.
Yeah, that's right. If you can make dinner for your lady, apparently its a huge point of awesome.

2. Chivalry isn't dead. Anyone who says otherwise is a cavern of lies.
Yes, some girls don't like all the "pay for dinner, do this do that" stuff. Or at least they say they don't. Here's a secret... Most of them do. Open doors, pull out chairs, offer to pay for things like dinner and movies. Some people think it's sexist, I think it's common decency. If I'm out with anyone I open doors for them. I've been known to pay the check when a few friends and I go out to eat. I tend to pay for food more often than not when out with girls I know. It's a nice gesture, dammit.

3. Compliments.
If you think someone looks nice, tell them. A few kind words go a loooong way to making a day brighter for someone. There's nothing wrong with telling a girl she looks beautiful, and there's nothing wrong with being observant enough to say you like something she's done with her hair/makeup/outfit.

4. Be Observant.
This is a good one for everything in life. Pay attention to the little things, as those details are often the most important. Little changes can mean big things.

5. Listen.
Pay attention to what they say, not just that they're saying it.

6. Be Legendary.
It no doubt helps to have friends like mine, who are very good at playing to my strengths when talking about me to others. No joke. Half the people I know thought I was too good to be real, and that I was just a myth.