Inevitable.

So I didn't talk to Heather for like 2 months. Once because she went crazy on me for no apparent reason, then we talked about a month later and she said she just needed space from me, so I didn't bother trying to talk to her after that.



Then I played Halo with a friend of hers. Said friend started an online relationship with one of Sean's friends that played with us, so Heather called me to ask about this young fellow, because she was concerned for her friend. She was kinda a jerk about it, but my attitude was basically whatever and I was a jerk in response. Next day she apologized, we talked about why we didn't really talk for two months, etc...



Basically, she was trying to be the bitter ex, with nothing to be bitter about. Talking to me just reminded her of how she felt about me and that she was happy with me, and had basically ended a relationship with the most perfect person for her, and it made her upset, etc. So she had spent 2 months trying to forget all about me, and it didn't work out terribly well. Or it may have, but when she started talking to me again it all fell apart. Actually before she started talking to me.



See, the reason she was a jerk about her friend and that situation is because earlier that day she went to Steak and Shake for the first time. If I was ever hungry and talking to her at like 1am, I went to Steak and Shake, so she associated it with me, and it made her remember everything happy about us. So we started talking normally again.



Unfortunately, normal for us means there's a lot of attraction, inevitably with admitting that the feelings are there and that we want to be together but don't want it just yet because of issues involved.



I thought I was past that feeling. She thought she was past it. She pointed out that it was going to happen, the feelings and want to be together would happen, there was no avoiding it. I disagreed. She was right. I don't like being wrong, so that's a bit hard for me to admit.



Total time from starting to talk again to hitting that point - Like 8 days. If that. Well, let's see... We started talking again last... Wednesday? She said "I love you" onnnn...Wednesday? Yeah. So 7 days. It's something we're both somewhat avoiding talking about now.

Clearly, I'm just not as in control of myself as I thought I was.

Also, I realized that anonymous comments weren't allowed on here, and since some people reading don't have google accounts, I changed that. Have fun.